Why does Paul live his life in a type of “paranoia?” BIB 534-1 - 07-4

Why would Paul who gave so much of himself to spread Christianity throughout much of the known world live his life in a type of paranoia? He was beaten, stoned and eventually executed for the faith and wrote, “We are confident, I say, and willing rather to be absent from the body, and to be present with the Lord.” 2 Corinthians 5:8

Shortly before his execution Paul wrote, “For I am now ready to be offered, and the time of my departure is at hand. I have fought a good fight, I have finished my course, I have kept the faith: Henceforth there is laid up for me a crown of righteousness, which the Lord, the righteous judge, shall give me at that day: and not to me only, but unto all them also that love his appearing.” 2 Timothy 4:6-8

With all that, Paul seems to have had a paranoia that he just hadn't done enough during his lifetime. Although he was secure in his salvation he was less optimistic of his reward(s) when he would stand in judgment before Jesus. A doctrine found in the New Testament is the Doctrine of Rewards and the Judgment Seat of Christ, called the Bema Seat Judgment. This brings to mind an image of Jesus sitting on a “raised platform” and judging His Church.

Although like Paul we will be in heaven, we will still have to make an accounting of what we did with our lives. And Paul wrote:

Hebrews 9:27, “And as it is appointed unto men once to die, but after this the judgment:”
Romans 14:10, “But why dost thou judge thy brother? or why dost thou set at nought thy brother? for we shall all stand before the judgment seat of Christ.”

2 Corinthians 5:9, “9 Wherefore we labour, that, whether present or absent, we may be accepted of him.”

1 Corinthians 3:14-15, “If any man's work abide which he hath built thereupon, he shall receive a reward. If any man's work shall be burned, he shall suffer loss: but he himself shall be saved; yet so as by fire.”

I expect that a nanosecond after the blade severed Paul neck, Jesus said to Paul, “Well done, good and faithful servant.”

As an aside, Dr. Missler’s briefing “Inheritance and Rewards” opens with:

“Are all believers going to be equal in heaven? Wasn’t it all decided at the Cross?
Is there a difference between overcoming sin and bearing fruit? What’s the difference between “entering” the Kingdom and “inheriting” it? What is a metachoi and how does one become one?”